today

today, my migs started crying while i was preparing for work. he was asleep so i tried to pacify him by lying down beside him and making sure he was aware i was there. he opened his eyes. i mentioned that it was too early to wake up and that he should sleep again, and that mommy will be going to office in a little while. at that point he said, "no, sleep on my pillow." so i lay my head beside his and tried to make him sleep again. but, everytime i thought he was asleep and i would try to sneak out of the bed, he would open his eyes and hug whatever body part he could get a hold of and cry.

this was torture for me and it brought tears to my eyes. and finally, we had to leave and he was left crying until he fell asleep again from being tired of crying.

i never experienced this side of migs' behavior before. and i think that seeing this is agravating my want to resign from work and be with him. i mentioned in my previous posts that i may not be a full time work material type of mom. now, i'm sure. i can probably be a mom many times around and i wouldn't mind. work will have to take a back seat.