what's up?

it's been ages since i updated this blog, you might think i've had a lot of adventures by now. well, no.

what have we been up to?

since july 2009, there hasn't been much change. just a few minor tweaks of emotion here and there.

• hubby started to play online games less, which is good.
• my migs had a fun time during halloween, his costume was a muscular batman.
• work was the same - I was much less nervous about presentations in the past few months. although there are quite a few changes that will happen in the next few weeks, i will reserve that for another post until there is something more definite.
• christmas was spent at my brothers' place, had major drama on christmas eve but family is family.
• new year was much better - my migs still doesn't like fireworks so he spent the new year with ear covers.
• still having issues with the in-laws but, they're still family, not much i can do about it. patience is a virtue - something i remind myself of, everyday.
• yaya left because of an incident in the household, yaya came back after two weeks. couldn't stand being away from her alaga.
• my migs had his first christmas presentation in school. caught him picking his nose on video. kodak moment!
• spent my birthday with my 2 boys. nothing fancy.
• watched avatar in 3d - 1st time to watch something in 3d. a little dizzy at first but got used to it.
• missing my dad - 7th year since he passed away.
• my migs going on a field trip on friday. will go with him. exciting!

that's about it. i'll update about what's going on with work sometime in march when i know more.

today

today, my migs started crying while i was preparing for work. he was asleep so i tried to pacify him by lying down beside him and making sure he was aware i was there. he opened his eyes. i mentioned that it was too early to wake up and that he should sleep again, and that mommy will be going to office in a little while. at that point he said, "no, sleep on my pillow." so i lay my head beside his and tried to make him sleep again. but, everytime i thought he was asleep and i would try to sneak out of the bed, he would open his eyes and hug whatever body part he could get a hold of and cry.

this was torture for me and it brought tears to my eyes. and finally, we had to leave and he was left crying until he fell asleep again from being tired of crying.

i never experienced this side of migs' behavior before. and i think that seeing this is agravating my want to resign from work and be with him. i mentioned in my previous posts that i may not be a full time work material type of mom. now, i'm sure. i can probably be a mom many times around and i wouldn't mind. work will have to take a back seat.

igorot costume

my hubby went to baguio a few weeks back and bought a kid's igorot costume for migs. it was only yesterday that he agreed to wear it so here are some pics. although he wore it, he didn't want to wear it without his underpants. cute noh? :)

my migs, future doctor?

coming off from the human body discussion with my migs, i decided to buy him a book that can offer some form of sustenance for his never ending thirst for knowledge.

i saw this activity book at toy kingdom. it was priced at around php350 or so. it contains reusable stickers, 1 book, and 1 double sided activity board.

migs had fun sticking the stickers to the board and finding out where his body parts are. i think it's worth every cent i paid for. good find!

plans for june

hubby and i are planning to go on an overnight trip in a hotel in june. actually, it's more of a treat for migs, than a 4th wedding anniversary celebration.

my migs is a curious boy. he loves to observe and see things that are new to him. and a hotel is certainly a new place to go to. some of the things i think he might find amusing would be:

• hotel lobby
• concierge
• baggage trolleys
  
• elevator
• bathtub
• shower
• faucet
• mini shampoo bottles
• mini soap
  
• big bed
• hotel stationery and pencil
• room service
• mini bar
• hotel phone
• room curtains
• view
• swimming pool
• garden

so here i am scouting for a good hotel with a pool and a good buffet menu. the buffet would be the 4th year wedding celebration. i'm leaning towards edsa shangri la with h.e.a.t. we've eaten there before and found they had really good food. hopefully i get to finalize things before the month ends.

i'm so excited! finally, something to look forward to!

happy mother's day to me

I will always remember the day,

I first held you in my arms,
how great you looked all wrapped up,
and the best feeling of all,

kissing you, the first time I saw you.

migs 1st field trip

on may 5, 2009, migs went on his first school field trip. the day started around 9:30 am when he woke up. but he didn't actually get off from the bed by then. instead, we spent around 30 minutes just lying there. around 10am, he was off downstairs for some breakfast. he finished eating around 10:20 just in time to get a quick bath. the school service came by for us around 10:35 am. off to school we went.

in school, we read a couple of books in the lobby and when some of his classmates started to arrive, he went inside the classroom. as usual, there were kids crying and clinging to the other moms and yayas. my migs was just hanging cool. he was cutting paper and while i was sitting beside him, he innocently said "mama, go out na." i was heartbroken! but i decided to look at the brighter side so i said, "no, i want to stay inside your classroom and watch you." so he began to walk around the room looking for something to do. he put together some puzzles, he wrote on the white board, erased, then they had circle time. this is to calm the children through songs and prepare them for where they were about to go. finally, they lined up and out we went to the cars.

i hitched a ride with carissa's mom. she was the first mom i ever talked to in the school and we got along pretty well. in the car with us was teacher teejay. so off we went to ice cream bar in rockwell. there were about 5 private cars in total carrying 11 kids, a couple of yayas, 4 moms and 4 teachers. it was good that it was only drizzling and not pouring like it is today.

once in ice cream bar, the kids looked around while teacher lisette introduced ms. jo. she's the lady who demonstrated how to make chocolate overload sundae (yum!). during her demonstration, the kids were already asking for spoons, evidently, they knew they were about to eat some ice cream! all in all, they ate three flavors - chocolate overload, mango yogurt with cornflakes and strawberry ice cream.


the kids got to pick their favorite and most of the kids picked strawberry, including migs. they got to peek at the freezers and see the different flavors and colors of ice cream.


but alas, it was time to go, so they thanked ms. jo, said goodye to the ice cream bar and formed their line to leave.

it was definitely a fun day with my migs. i look forward to future field trips to come. i have a couple more years until he finally says "mom, you don't have to go with me. my classmates don't have any moms with them." *sniff sniff*

here i go again

i didn't have any sleep at all last night. nada. went to bed around 10pm, woke up at 1pm and has been awake since. my mind wouldn't stop thinking and the voices in my head wouldn't shut up. yes, there are voices in my head. i'm not crazy, well maybe just a little...

for the past few months, i've been really stressed with work and mixing that with a toddler who is oh so cute, and has a lot of tricks up his sleeve, well, it just doesn't mix. i don't think i can ever be a successful full time working mom. i feel that my priorities have changed as the different stages in my life have presented themselves.

when i was single (a.k.a not married) , work was great. it allowed me to buy the things i needed for myself, boyfriend and family.

when i got married, shifting was still ok as hubby and i have been together for 13 years prior to getting married, we were used to each other's schedules.

when i got pregnant and gave birth, work was still ok but shifting was not. i felt that i needed to be with my son during the night. to leave for work while he was about to sleep was torture for me.

so i thought that moving to a morning account would end that. think again. now that my son is a toddler and going to school, the need for me to be with him is greater than ever. now, i feel that i'm shortchanging everyone. i don't want to feel guilty staying home with my son, but i do. i feel that i give less to the people i work with. and i feel that when i need to be at work for important meetings, i am shortchanging my son.

the past few days have made it clear to me, i'm slowly falling into fits of depression from all the stress, the worrying and that nagging voice inside my head.

i need to get out of this. i really do... soon!

migs' first day in school

today was migs' 1st day in summer school. the day started fairly well. migs woke up around 730am , bath at around 8am. we dressed him up in a blue shirt with white stripes and white shorts. but then, he decided that he didn't like that and he picked his own clothes. he wanted to wear his blue and yellow beckham soccer jersey outfit. so he ended up looking like he was going to play soccer instead of going to school. but that was fine since they don't have uniforms in school and they encourage the independence in picking your own clothes, no matter how "baduy" or out of sorts it is.


so when he was dressed, we waited for the school service, which arrived around 8:40am. since the school is really near our home, it just took around 5-7 minutes of a car ride to get there. when we got there, there were a lot of parents, yayas and kids waiting for classes to start.

migs immediately felt at home and started to explore the vicinity. he went through the kitchen and came back to the lobby, like it was his own house. he went inside the admin office and looked around. the admin officer asked him questions while he was there and he answered. he asked about the printer and the staplers and the scotch tapes. he was pretty comfortable with the people and the surroundings.

migs belongs to the rugrats class for incoming nursery students. they are 9 students in his class with 2 teachers and 1 teacher's aid. when he got to the classroom, he went straight in without even looking back at me. he sat down and played with clay. i think i was the one experiencing separation anxiety as i didn't want to leave him in the classroom alone! i took a few videos and proceeded to wait outside as the other mommies tried to pacify their crying children.

when they went out to play, he walked confidently and i was proud to see that he was able to go up the playground gym by himself. by this time, hubby was also there to see how independent he was. when it was time to go back to the classroom for snacks, he was the first in line and didn't even wait for the teachers. he went straight back to the classroom, passing by the bathroom to wash his hands.

before it was time to leave, he made a request to go number 2 so yaya rose, the teacher's aid in his class, went with him to the bathroom. imagine that, on his first day, he decided to christen the school's bathroom :)

when it was dismissal time, he had his lunchbox in his hand and said good bye to his teacher. i was really proud of my migs today. i can't wait to hear more stories of how he's doing in school. unfortunately, i can't be with him when he goes to the rest of his school days because i have to be at work. boo!

to my migs, i know you will do well! i love you!

Holy Thursday

today is Holy Thursday. i'm glad to be off work and spending time with my migs. he woke up pretty early so i took the chance and brought him to greenhills, along with my nephew jose. no traffic, not too many people, it was perfect. we took out his bike so he could go around the parking lot, far from the early morning joggers going around the shopping center. but alas, he preferred to run around, walk on and jump off the parking lot beams. we stayed just around 15 minutes since we took the car without permission from hubby. :) on the way home we bought fresh, hot pandesal from pan americana. yum!

this afternoon, we filled the kiddie pool with water. when my migs wakes up, he will dive right into it. i wish i was a kid again. life is soooo much simpler.